In 2015, I set my intention for the year - be present - and it resulted in the best year of my life thus far. But as the year came to an end I worried that there was no more goodness left, that the best time of my life was coming to an end. Oh what a familiar feeling! Being in college and high school, they say to you "these are the best years of your life," and so when you hit the quarter life crisis after graduating, it's natural to panic. It's natural to think, "if those were the best years of my life, I'm only 22 so now it's on to a mediocre life?? Wait, I don't even really feel like an adult...maybe I can push this whole adult thing out a little longer...??"
Breathe. I had to remind myself to breathe. And also remind myself to come back to the present moment.
This past weekend was so simple and yet fulfilling. I got a chance to hang out with one of my closest friends who visited from out of town and we were content sipping wine, catching up and cracking up.
Last night, I toasted to my new job with some friends from work in downtown Santa Ana and I was just so happy to be out exploring the night life of a city I hadn't previously frequented with good vibes and good company.
I was also reminded of the wonders that having no expectations can do for your life. Expectations pull you out of the present forcing you to constantly look ahead, hoping that what's to come fits what you picture in your mind. Dropping expectations allows you to rest in the present, at ease that what's to come, is simply that - it's what to come. Allow it to be.
I think it's safe to say we could all use a little bit more presence in our lives and the beauty of it is, is that there is an endless supply for all of us.
The present is where I had all my fun and where I will continue to thrive. Coming into March, I'm no longer worried about the times ahead. Sure, things have changed in my life but I think it's more accurate to say things have shifted in a direction that continue to allow me to live out an amazing life.